Really?

So i cant read your blog anymore? Thats green.

Diamond diamonds, are you all in the sky?

So yeah. Day 765. Its nice to talk to Trevor again. I missed getting to talk to him everyday. I would never tell him this cause i know it's what he wants but i dont want him to go to germany. But on the other hand. Im hanging out with suzanne on friday. I think we are going to downtown gville? Idk. Mikes leaving me so suzi told me she would be my wing. Im sure the conversations will be different though. lol. But that might actually be a good thing?

Your counting days on the back of your hand, You turned the pages till you had no more plans.

Its weeks like this that make you wanna give up. When you have 3 insane classes. And two not so insane ones just getting in the way. And they all want papers at the same time.... Makes you want to quit. But ya gotta push through.
Ill be going to florida this weekend and winston salem next weekend.
Sometimes it sucks to watch almost all of your friends slip off the edge of living the life. Ill be suprised to see alot of you finish. Not saying any names.

Song, Ice box, remake from there for tomorrow. Kinda how i feel now. Not crazy about it.

Day 782 and im starting to think about the end.

Looking at this i think that the world is set to end 2 days after i turn 21. So 780 days till im 21! Im starting to wonder now.... Is it really going to end. When you think of all the possibilities its hard to avoid the fact that it is possible. And it kinda creeps me out. But oh well. Im going to have the best 782 days possible. On with other things. Got a postcard from trevbo today that looked like it went through hell to make it to me. Being home all day i had alot of time to think about everything. All the momentos from shit we did last summer that are still in my wallet. And in his wherever his wallet happens to be. The last cigar ring. The ticket... Ahh what good times. A few shaky. But all in all i cant wait till you get home so we can crack a cold one, light up a cigar, and talk about the good times. And of course go to the waffle house at 3 in the morning! People here just dont see the importance of a meal at the waffle house and a game cigar. How that is my optimum setting for real conversations. And if they had any clue how much i missed it. Theyd be a little more understanding as to why i have to game cigars in my dresser. Just waiting. Get home soon trevbo. Miss you man.

"Do you think he should go to the hospital? No only when he pukes blood." Dont bother me till then.

Well... As it all turns out he never puked blood. Just half digested jello shots. He is really going to need the rug doctor after fall break. It was bad. Wasnt me so i really dont care. But it sucks that a good night ended like that for my roommate. lol. Annoying at times... Yes. But Mike is probably the realest person i know up here. Most people i have met are so caught up in being someone else that they cant even remember who they were. Even people you hated in high school turn out to be realer than people there. However.... It is the only flaw i have found in the system thus far.

On the bright side..... Well. 4 weeks till xmas. And one until im on the road for two straight weeks!!! W00T.

update. 10-23-10

My roommates sister is here. She is sixteen. This is no place for a fucking child. Especially when you act just alike. I can handle one of you... Not two. I need a drink....

The chords started to match, and the music flowed purely, from the soul, for the world to hear.

To start off. Send the letter pleasant. I was told specifically that you were allowed to have the address. So send the letter. Dont overthink it. Its a piece of paper with some words on it. And he needs the support. Thats really my main purpose for this. And to say that college has officially consumed my life.

I, I can't imagine what you're going through, but I can have my ideas.

Why does everything feel like it happens so fast. Why does everything happen. How did I get here. This is my dream and i'm living it. Got to go home the past two weekends. Had no clue how much those people missed me. I miss them too. But i am not going to trade in what i am experiencing here. Everything I do here just instills me with more pride than I ever thought it would. Its getting under my skin. Everyone seems to love me here. But idk. You havent filled that gap just yet. We just havent been together for long enough yet. But I love you all. And I think you are all just great. Even though all but two of you are clearly sheltered. And its clear that i lead a more interesting life than any of you. haha. Havent seen sarah since school started. And to be honest..... Thats fine with me. Although i do kinda wanna see bobbie :( . I stepped out. Said is this where I wanna be. Nodded yes and stepped back in.

Pleasant- Im glad to finally be writing this. I hope youre homecoming was grand and that you will always remember it. Im glad you finally tried a late night waffle house run. I know I will never forget all the time i spent in waffle house with trevor. Down to the last time we went before he left. Always cherish those things.

You go out like a riptide

College is a cluster fuck.... Of everything. Sorry if that scares you. But i guarantee nothing you did in high school could prepare you for this. Because high school never took away home. Thats the hardest part. The work load is enormous but manageable. By this point in your life making friends should be a back burner function. But being snatched out of your home and thrown into all of it in a new environment. That is the biggest challenge. But other than that college is great. Love the people. And im really sorry to the vast majority of laurens people... but you havent even crossed my mind. And most of you are really proving yourselves. And im sure youre saying the same things about me. And thats fine. Im not losing any sleep over it. Oh and btw. My new driver is great. And im ready to go to auburn.

And I swear i thought we were in a movie, till it ended and nobody said a thing.

Today was quite possibly greatest day of my life. Everything about it was just amazing. If this is any indication of what college is going to be like then im all in. Me and eleven other people went white water rafting on the nantahala river. The car ride up was amazing. Me robbie suzanne and summer listened to movie soundtrack music all the way there and realized that our musical tastes work really well. The river was amazing. I got to spend time with lots of great people. The ride back was beautiful in the nantahala national forest. I realized that i can finally be myself around these people and when i got thrown off the raft today i realized that these people actually do care about me. And it feels good to be assured of that. I hope that wasnt my last road trip with them.

Song-Interstate 8, Iron Horse, Pickin on Modest Mouse.

Every time i hear that song... It reminds me of summer. So i turn it off.

Well my life seems to have calmed down long enough for me to blog. So in the off chance that anyone still reads this im gonna blog. My roommate is a creep. He follows me around, commentates constantly about everything, and now on top of all that he follows me on twitter! wtf. However, I have made some great new friends over here. Its kinda surreal because i still dont feel like ive gone anywhere. But i think im gonna love it here. I miss laurens but i feel like im only missing it because thats where home is. So im just gonna take what comes my way and keep runnin.

QOTD-If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living. -Gail Sheely

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Yes ive heard the song for today.
KSM is garbage. And yes i had been forced into that song before too. Branch to some interesting fusion genre or something. I prefer post-hardcore or folk. But you choose.

And no bonus points for you. Alyssa even agrees. And Alyssa never agrees.

SSOTD- Wonderless- Pierce the veil
And i'd imagine you've never heard it before.

Lost Year

Hold on to the way we started
How it all should have gone
Somewhere love was disregarded
And it all came undone
Undone

Cuz nothings a breeze
We suffer we bleed
For two hearts to beat as one
We learn as we go
At least now we know
Something we can't become
Become

If a talk could really solve this
What are we fighting for?
Words hurt more then they arm us
Don't say anymore
Anymore

Cuz nothings a breeze
We suffer we bleed
For two hearts to beat as one
We learn as we go
At least now we know
Something we can't become
Become

Oh for a year we were strong and courageous
But we lost it somehow
Oh if there was something that could have saved us
We'd have found it by now

Cuz nothings a breeze
We suffer we bleed
For two hearts to beat as one
We learn as we go
But at least now we know
Something we can't become
Become

Theres no luck
In our lives
No living under starlight
No sight
In your eyes
To keep us from running around in circles anymore
Whoaaa

Hold on to the way we started
How it all should have gone


Lost Year- Mutemath

If you wanna pick songs and work off my quote idea ill just pick songs that stomp yours :)

oh yeah

I forgot all about the full moon last night. That might explain some things huh??? lol

Good to know.

The talk happened last night. More than i expected. Idk sometimes things happen and we dont know why. But i honestly think we are past everything ready to move forward. Saw ethan last night. I really wish that kid would get his life straight because right now its fucked up man.... Trevors fine. I know where he was. He was going to stay there. Theres been no outburst of info poured to me this morning so he'll be fine. Glad to know i have the best laurens voice by the way. I told you i did.

Update number one

Why im up at 8 when i didnt go to bed till 2 is amazing to me. Only one up. But that doesnt suprise me. It didnt help at all to find out yesterday that paige didnt like her coming over at all. And did her best to keep me occupied so theyd get here before me. Which worked. So score one for paige. Idk. I guess its just hard for her to realize that we arent where we were before. My feelings arent back to where they were. And i think its beggining to make this trip rather awkward. So we'll see.

This blog was strictly an update so therefore it recieves no gold stars or quotes.

Excitment.... Trick please. I just spontaneously combusted on the inside.

Idk whats up with the title.

I'm going to be blunt and say this only once. Dont ask for an expanation. I dont like the new background. Im sorry. It just doesnt suit your personality at all. I just dont think grafitti is exactly the background for someone who corrects text grammar. So theres my opinion there.

Pat called today when I was with Paige. I ignored the call. Nothing nice to say.

Still not excited but apparently your brother is. He doesnt get to go to his warped tour in atlanta tomorrow and he isnt even bummed about it. I love that kid. And i am in fact happy to say that i am finally excited for you to come. But only for him. You do what you want.... Trick...

Ive set up a new "home office" It gives me a feeling of importance and i finally get some alone time before midnight :)

QOTD-(Insert Here)
Gold Star- Whoever figures our pleasants dillemas first! lol just kidding pleasant. just kidding.

If you arent dead then it wasnt a mistake, it was life.

Today was decent. Prepping this mullet. Went and got a part for the truck. Really enjoyed camp today. Im enjoying getting to spend time with paige again :). Idk what to say. The closer this weekend gets the more im dreading it. I think im just worried it'll just be a continuation of the last time i saw you. I dont ever want to feel like that again.
My aunt stole 500 dollars from the college account my grandma made for me when i was little. So now i dont have enough money to buy books. But i dont guess that matters much as long as you pay your ELEVEN YEAR OLDS CELL PHONE bill right??? Rot in hell bitch. When my grandma dies and I never got to spend any time with her because of the things you were worried id hear i am going to publically blame you and expose you for the fake ass fraud you are. Youre robbing me of my grandmother and my grandmother of her life. I hope the bed gets colder as you grow older because youre going to grow old alone. I just hope your daughter robs you of as much joy as you have robbed your mother of.

QOTD-When the world breaks down around you, stand braced, youre only in the eye of the storm.
Gold Star- Mom for sticking up for me today.

these cuts that i've caused are never to deep to heal peel back the bandage, see a scar from countless, careless things

Why does everyone hear that shes coming and instantly assume that we'll be dating soon. To be real her coming is all im thinking about. But im not especially excited. Idk. Its been a while and i really dont know how to feel. its wierd and i dont especially like it. I dont get these sorts of feelings.

So camp was good today. Or at least my job was. Not really sure about the others to be honest.


QOTD- "Just because someone has something to say, doesnt make them worth listening to"

Gold Star- Paigeepoo:) for giving me my lunch date buddy back :) looking forward to bojangles tomorrow!

887 The past should stay dead.

tailored sheets cant cover up the mess you've made, the lies you've told, the things you've said, the accusations you made, The bitch you were, the lives we've led, the times i lost it, the times you lost it back, the fights that lasted way to long. But time seems to make the past haze over and fall into the fog, and even though its still there... It's easier to live with. And i think i'm ready to do that.

Sorry i havent written alot lately. some things have happened faster than im willing to log them. So now im catching up. Im done with milling. Im back to doing what i do best. The band thing. This is going to shock the shit out of you pleasant. But sarah is coming over this weekend. Shocked me too. But I think its for the best. Things have been getting better recently and i think we need a weekend to try and put the past behind us. And she thinks so too. So ill keep ya posted. Move in date... August 11th. Ready to do this. But scared to death to leave.

gold star- Mom, who is going to lose epically at our farmvilleing** competition.

QOTD-"first rule of leadership-- everything is your fault" a bugs life... That ones for you mizz pleasant.

Quote for today. Whatever day it is.

"A dream is a question you can't answer"-Jonny Craig

906

2.5 until i go to the beach!!! im excited even though nobody is going to be there from last year. New emarosa drops tuesday so im super pumped! Im gonna be jammin to that for like the next year! College is set to go. Ordering my laptop tomorrow and then im all set. So im excited.

QOTD- "Dont kill the horse you rode in on. Because when everyones back is turned there may not be another horse to ride you out"

quote

"To God I pray, May April showers rain on her forest and grow the strength that started with one rose." Tattoo of trey songz. If i ever got a tat it would be that across my back.

Day 916-- Fathers day 2010

It's fathers day. I havent blogged since graduation night. I dont even want to talk about everything that has happened since that night. All I will say is wow. Ive learned that you never know what to expect out of life. And never get to comfortable with tomorrow because it is NEVER promised. I dont really know what to think now. About of lot. But i have my eyes set on where i want to go so i am going to set my ship afloat. I really do hope everything goes well for you and your family up north. Ill be praying for you.


"We woke up to a reality that made us try to wake up again
Six hours into a game you never got to play
You left us all wondering why it had to end this way
To teach us a lesson, To live for today
Tomorrow is a hope not a guarantee
The world keeps moving, We were never meant to hold on"

"sometimes i wonder if our hearts are the right places to sing from"-- Jack Johnson

934... Day of the trash stache

So. For starters Ms.Pleasant I expect a full and complete apology.
I have nothing but a moustache now. Its the most horrible thing ever. hahaha.
Getting my new I-pod in the morning so thats exciting.

Gold Star- Joyce for meeting me tomorrow with a sams club card so i can buy my ipod :)

QOTD- "Education without ambition is like a bird without wings"

Now off to trevors!!!

Day 935 was a day of constant realization.

Today I realized a lot. I realized that i work with the biggest dumb asses on earth and a high school education should be required by law. I realized that i miss my I-Pod. Which i lost to the atlantic ocean by the way :((((. I realized how ready i am to have a nearly bald head. I realized that i cook a mean cheesburger. I realized I was out of goldfish and was highly upset. So overall. Good day I guess. I nearly died of heat exhaustion. Just so nobody ever tries it DO NOT take a skid steer loader into 3 feet of mud. Its not going to come out without a fight.

Trevors coming over tonight. Probably because we have school tomorrow. lol.

Gold Star:Travis Mahon for being such a dumb ass. You made me laugh a little.

QOTD-"If you don't respect yourself, Who else should?"

Days 939-935

Ok, so to start off with lets go back to the concert.... Really hard night altogether. Had to finally say goodbye. Now I just have to make it through thursday and im home free. Went to the beach. Wasnt as exciting as years past. Still had a really good time with my family. I get to go back next week with my friends. So im pumped about that. Very uneventful 4 days. Shaving my head on friday. Rocking the goatee for now. Shaving that off on wednesday.

Song lyrics for tonight. "I'm about to spend my whole life, cutting corners and placing blame. Any moment this could catch fire, erasing all the stains. So heres to starting over, or we could be the same. We'll change it all together, The futures mine to claim." Emarosa- Toast to the future kids.

Gold star- Trevor for losing his phone and learning how important I am all in one fell swoop.

940 although its after midnight.

Ok. So tonight i learned that split decisions make things interesting. First, Trevor and I decided to go to Laurens WH instead of Ft.Inn because laurens puts the logo on their waffles. Then we decided to take a shortcut. The shortcut took us down raider road. Its painting season down there. So we see some cars. Turns out its Emily, Samantha, and Erika painting the road. So Trevor parked and we went and painted our names in the road. Then we all went and walked around and chilled for an hour or so. Then we made it to waffle house. And enjoyed fantastic food. Then we went to walmart and found some good new gum. We just got home. So basically my night was made off one decision to go to laurens because of a waffle house waffle logo. What a life I lead.

941 shall forever be known to this blog a "day of the widgets"

9 days since i started this countdown i decided to make my blog more user friendly. So ive posted some widgets. One is a doomsday countdown that way when im on vacation and not blogging you can still know how many days until you die!!! Isn't that exciting!?!?!? The other widget sadly i stole. From my new reader Alex. I enjoy your blog. Its very interesting.

Ms.Pleasant. From the picture in your most previous blog i can see where i park my truck!

Work passed by so slow today. I think its because someone actually tried to engage conversation with me. To bad they were so high their words were slurring. Also. Today was a solemn day for the wasp army. 12 of their warriors were shot down with my chemical gun "can of rustoleum spray paint" Then their nests met the same fate. It was a pretty intense fight for a minute. They tried to gang up on me.... NOT HAPPENING! So yeah im pretty much the rambo of our time.

Heard on the radio today that Britteney Spears passed Ashton Kutcher for the most followed person on twitter. I really do believe that. Im much more interested in what britteney is doing than Ashton Kutcher. What does he do thats interesting???

Gold Star..........- Idk My new reader person Alex gets it today. Thank you for reading and letting me steal your playlist idea :D

QOTD-"Who is more ignorant, a man with no understanding of lightning or a man with no respect for its power?"

Day 942 was a boring pissy day

Today started out shitty. I couldve punched a bitch in the face. But im better now. I thank ms.Pleasant for all of her advice this morning.
I havet really had anything spectacular happen today? so ill give the gold star to jack off 24 for making it through another season of 24 without dying.

Ms.Pleasant. I am upset with you and my lack of rap.

Qotd- "Act as if what you do makes a difference,it does"

Ill have something better tomorrow. Things get alot better on thursday. Think my 2 readers. By the end of this summer we will have less than 900 days left. Im getting worried! lol NOT

Im gonna let you decide on that picture for yourself. HAHAHAHAHA!!! thats my grandma btw.

Day 943, The slowest, fastest, most normal, but different day thus far.

I can think of someone I would like to ask this. Its been 3 months. And I still dont understand it. Ive pondered it. Ive pondered it with others. And they dont understand why your such a bitch. And honestly. I cant wait to see you so I can tell you that. It just doesnt seem right that you wake up feeling completely different with no reason. So no. I dont want to see you, when i get the bracelet back i may burn it and use your letters as toilet paper.



On a lighter note. Ms.Pleasant. You... Get the gold star for day number 943 on the countdown to "doomsday". For being so strong and resilient despite all the assanine things you saw and were told today. It was very character revealing. Although I resent not getting my rap. You took enough today to earn it.



Lost... Is a very stupid show. Im glad i never watched it. And im hopeful that i never will.

Ms.Pleasant(yes you get two tonight) Im posting the video i told you to watch in this. If you do not watch it and tell me what you thought i will repeal your gold star.



Today was fantastic. And tomorrow is gonna be better!!!

Day 944

Blogging fast. Trevor doesnt know i have this blog ;)

Gold Star-Kohls Cashier

Miss Pleasant- Im not mean until your mean. Your fantastic :D

Ok. No work tomorrow. makes me happy. Tired. Waffles soon. I want yogurtland.

Beep.beep.beep. *dramatic close*

945 days left. And I have nothing to say.

Gold star of the day goes to trevor. For being such a good sport when i smoked him at dominoes.

Ms.NotSoPleasant, SuziQ. Dont worry about it. Its all good. Maybe I just wont invite you to waffle house now! But on the flipside i did blog early.

My new blog stalker, You should follow publicly! That way I can be like hah! 3 followers. Hope you enjoy counting down the days to "doomsday" with me.

Overall, good day. Went to work. Got straight dirty. Used a side grinder. Got little burns all up and down my arm from the hot metal. good stuff. Got home took a shower. And here i am. I really need something better to talk about!

Come with me, And you'll be, In a, World of pure imagination... 946 days from now.

Yes. I listen to Willy Wonka. That man had class. Of course im not talking about that recent johnny depp shit. He ruins like every good classic movie.

I went to work today. Painted like crazy. Came home. Boring night. Im watching king right now. I dont know much of what to say tonight. So lets continue. I wish more people around here blogged. Itd make this more fun. Ms.Pleasant. I do however enjoy that you read this nightly. It makes me blog the next day. Work gave me lots of time to think today. And i got a new quote.

"STDs arent pokemon, you dont have to catch them all" ISNT THAT GREAT!!! hahaha.

Well. Thats about all i have. Ill try and have a more interesting day tomorrow.

Oh yes. Picture of me. Last day of high school.

My name is Wesley Blake White, And I am a 6th grade hoe with 947 days to live.

947 days. And im going to spend the majority of them in college. Good times. Today was a hard day to swallow. I was doing good until it was time to hug santez. I see so much of myself in that kid. All the time Trevor and I spent turning him into a respectable young man. It all paid off. The kid can actually be pretty fantastic when he puts his mind to it. And today when I had to say goodbye to him it bothered me.

Ms.Pleasant. Your own calendar would work for you. But i plan on ending this eventually. I think a calendar of ms.pleasant would be a cool blog template though.

I begin work at the sawmill tomorrow. And honestly im nervous.

Gold Star of the day: Heather Schaefer for being stronger than i thought she was going to be. I love you chica

Quote of the day- "Though no one can make a brand new start, you can start from now and make a brand new ending."

Day 948 (Insert Snazzy Title Here)

To start off ill give out my gold star. Todays goes to my band director andy cause its his birthday. Tomorrow is my last day of high school. I have mixed feelings about this day. Feelings ive been feeling about this day for a few years. So tomorrow is going to be a sad day overall. Sarah and I talked tonight. Should be getting two letters from her soon. One was written after our fight. And one is current. I really hope these letters have some substance. I dont want "i love you's" and "I miss you's" that she doesnt really mean all over the place. I dont want that. I really dont even know if i wanna work everything out. It just doesnt seem realistic.

Mizz Pleasant.... Now for your portion.

1. Im still getting used to this blog mess. Give it some time.

2. Im not going to make paragraphs, this thing wont even let me indent!

3. Quote from a song, "Head toward the light, the dark, has no place here."-Emarosa, Heads or Tails, Real or Not- Album: Relativity

4. My blog title is a quote by emerson. Yes thats right. Ive got some depth.

5.When this is a book, You get the dedication. hahaha

P.S.- photo is me on my very first day of high school.

P.S. I prefer Mr.Chacahoula...Just saying.

OK PEOPLE! 949 days!!!! w00t. Lets get excited. So yeah Ms.Pleasant... Im pretty sure i wont be here but one weekend in spetember. And yes. Its after the shipment date so the product will be delivered. So yeah. Nothing special today. Went with trevor and ordered a plaque for my band director. Dumb ass walks in while we are working on the plaque. I came up with a cool new quote too. Check this... "Life is a gravel road, we have to embrace the bumps, they are what make each road unique" Can i get a hell yes? Or possibly a "hey yo"??? lol hahaha Well ummm. I think i awarded my gold star to someone today... In fact i know i did. I wanna say i gave it to moms for something she said. But i forget. Oh well. Ill just pretend that happened.

Today is 5-15-10 and i have 950 days until i die according to the mayans.

Honestly. The mayan calendar isnt ending. By the time these people wasted their entire run of civilization making calendars 900 years in advance. The Spanish were there with guns. So the mayans get my gold star of the day. Its been an odd weekend. Didnt really do much. My bird died on friday. Its been odd getting used to things without him around. But its getting better. On a lighter note im learning how to fingerpick on my guitar. Which is really exciting for me because its a skill ive been wanting to learn for a long time now. I really wish this certain person would choose whether they want to be a part of my life or not. Because the way things are going im just getting angry with it. Ok. Ill blog later. Night. I really feel like my life deserves one of those cool little "24" countdown things every night when i go to sleep. Instead of counting hours i would like the mayan "stupid days" counting down. That way when i wake up on 12-22-12 i can laugh and have a good day.

Disclaimers

No, I will not post in this everyday. No, I do not care if your opinions dont match mine... hell i hope they dont. Thats what keeps things saucy. If you are a creepy little fat old man sitting in your underwear up in new jersey somewhere go ahead and click the "x". There arent any "purty lil gurls" here for you to "sprankle sum musterd on...mhm." But if you know me. Read... Move on. Dont bring this blog up to me in personal conversation. Chances are if i said it here i wont remember it. Great theat you take time to read. We could all benefit from a tad more of that. I just figured with college and everything coming up this might be a good place to put my thoughts.